"One Hit Wonder"

performed @ the Nuyorican Poets Cafe

I want to be a one hit wonder.

In an unexpected eruption of flames, I want to rocket to fame and hover there, just for a second, elevated above the masses, before I tumble straight back down to the ground amidst broken hearts and bruised asses.

I want to be a one hit wonder.

Like the Baha Men. Who let the dogs out? I did! I let the dogs out! But how come no one gives a damn?

I want to be a one hit wonder because I wonder if I’ll otherwise ever be guaranteed meaning in life.

When I was younger, I witnessed upcoming celebrities rise to fame at the tender ages of 14, 17, 20, 21.

I, for one, worry that my time to be in the spotlight has passed me by because I’ve been 22 for a while now and my YouTube Channel only has 61 subscribers, 34 of which are various fake accounts planted by my biggest fan and supporter – me.

15 seconds of fame? Heck, I’ll take 2, one second to appreciate the moment and another to snap a pic and upload to instagram for all of posterity to remember that I ONCE WAS IMPORTANT.

I want to be a one hit wonder and have people throw so much jealous shade at me I could walk into any desert and come out unscorched.

I am worried that unless I am a one hit wonder, I will never taste purpose or fulfillment or self-actualization.

I am worried that I will fade into oblivion like every other humanities major before me.

I am worried that I’ve never mattered to the world.

I am worried that in an attempt to keep up with the times, I will one day be forced to learn how to code.

I am worried that I don’t matter to the world.

I am worried that Kenan and Kel will never make a Good Burger 2.

I am worried that I will never matter to the world.

I am worried because they tell me that love trumps all, but people like Trump do not love.

I am worried that I will one day be good at politics.

I am worried that growing up and being a real person will hurt more than adding the hashtag #adulting to minor comedic mishaps on my snapchat story.

I want to be a one hit wonder because I want to experience flight for just a split second and not worry about the consequences.

I want to be a one hit wonder because I want to be on top of the world without having to climb all the way up there, cause I don't like cardio.

I want to be a one hit wonder, but I worry because one hit wonders don’t think, they do, and I too want to do but I suffer from a bad case of I’ll do it tomorrow, but ya see if I’m ever a one hit wonder, there will be no tomorrow, no today even, there will only be one song, one play, one listen, then an eternity of silence.